Finding Balance

Well it didn’t take long for this post to become necessary. Six weeks ago I announced the resurrection of my writing and publishing activities. I noted how I was almost finished publishing my first book through Quiet Publications (now done), how I needed to update the Quiet Publications website (still in progress), and how I was bringing back Quiet Devotions (still on schedule to begin on November 30). I also noted that I was working on the final edit of my novel before I begin searching for representation (still editing), and that I would publish on this blog weekly.

A week later I did publish another post on this blog. My next post appeared two weeks and one day later. That was three weeks ago. Do you notice a pattern here?

Once again I’ve overestimated my abilities. If I could write full time, I could probably do what I said I’d do in that first post. But I can’t. In addition to writing, I raise and homeschool two children. I run all of the administrative aspects of my husband’s software consulting business, including payroll. (And by that I mean I actually do the payroll myself, not just send the information to ADP or some other payroll processing company.) I’ve stepped up my volunteering commitments at my church and at my kids’ homeschool co-op. And I’m still doing the whole stay-at-home wife and mother thing, which, while often considered less demanding than “real” work, takes a fair amount of time and energy. In addition to all that, I feel I need to pay more attention to my overall health and wellbeing, which also takes time and energy.

What I’m doing isn’t working, so I’m trying to find balance in my life.

In January of 2012 I published a post about following a New Year’s Rule of Life instead of making new year’s resolutions. The rule of life is based on the four categories in Jesus’ greatest commandment: “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your mind, and with all your strength.” I wrote that almost six years ago. Finding balance is clearly an ongoing theme for me. Even though we’re still more than a month away from the new year, I think it would be beneficial for me to give this some thought now. After all, January 1 is an arbitrary date, and there’s no sense in putting off something beneficial (hopefully) because the calendar says it isn’t time yet.

So here’s how I hope to find balance in my life moving forward:

Heart: I define this as the ways in which I nurture the important relationships in my life. The most important relationships I have are with my husband and with my children. Tom and I are already taking time every evening and some mornings to focus on each other, plus we go on a biweekly date night. As two busy parents of two active children, this is the best we can do right now. But we are taking time for each other every day, which is important. Figuring out how I’m nurturing my relationship with my children is more difficult. So much of what I do is for their development, education, or wellbeing, which are important, but don’t necessarily nurture our relationship. I guess the “heart” things I’m doing for them include regular cuddle times (I’m thrilled that they haven’t outgrown this yet, even though they’re 8 and 9) and occasional surprises like movies together or ice cream.

Soul: This past September I became a Benedictine Oblate at Glastonbury Abbey in Hingham, Massachusetts. When I did so, I vowed to practice Benedictine spirituality to the best of my ability in my own life situation. I can’t pray all the daily offices (much as I’d like to), but I can get up a little earlier than everyone else in my house so I have some quiet time to focus my thoughts and prayers on God. Ideally I’d like to practice Lectio Divina every morning, but the reality of my life situation is that I can’t, and I’ve given myself permission to not feel guilty on those days when my quiet prayer time is shortened because of health or family obligations. Saint Benedict was serious about balance and dealing with life’s realities, and there’s room in his Order for local and situational adjustments. I just need to take care that those adjustments truly are necessary, and not excuses. (That’s why I’ve removed GardenScapes from my phone and try not to check email, news, or Facebook before my prayer time. Emphasis on try.)

Mind: I think my writing falls into this category. All of my fiction, nonfiction, blogging, and publishing activities have to share this space, and that means I can’t do as much of it as I might like. I have to prioritize. For the short term, my top priority is updating Quiet Publications to handle online orders and setting up the first few weeks of Quiet Devotions. After that I need to finish editing my novel and querying agents. For the moderate term my priority will be keeping Quiet Devotions up to date, while also getting started on my next nonfiction book. My long term plans will depend on how successful I am with my short and moderate term plans, so I’ll hold off identifying those just now. Posting to this blog is part of my ongoing plan, but at the bottom of the priority list. If something’s going to get missed, this is it. (Please subscribe so you don’t miss any of my erratic posts!)

Strength: As has been true for most of my life, I need to lose weight. But losing weight is not one of my goals right now. This category is called “strength,” and strength is what I need. Once again my family is without health insurance, and my margin for error is shrinking in regards to my health. My diet and exercise programs are focused not on weight loss, but on building physical strength and improving my overall health. I choose my food based on its nutritional benefits to my body (most of the time), and I’m trying to include cardio, strength training, and yoga in my regular routine. I’ve finally accepted the truth that there are a lot of good reasons to exercise, but weight loss is not one of them. My weight is determined in part by genetics (which I can’t control) and in part by my diet (which I can). So my focus is on my overall health, and if I happen to lose weight in the process, great.

As much as I would like to take those four categories and call it done, I can’t. Grocery shopping doesn’t fall into any of those categories. Neither does managing the household finances, or doing laundry, or working for my husband’s company, or even homeschooling my children. All of those things go to support my family, but none of them really nurture relationships or benefit me spiritually, mentally, or physically. But they are all necessary. So I have to add a fifth category: Necessities of Life. This one is tricky, because it’s difficult to determine what is truly necessary and what only feels necessary. I can only do the best I can, and keep reassessing my choices.

Then there’s the fact that I look at these priorities, and they’re all about me. My health, my family, my wellbeing. One thing that really got drilled into me at seminary is: It’s not about you. To a point that’s good advice, but taken too far it becomes toxic. (Hence the number of pastoral burnouts and broken marriages.) But without some focus outside of yourself, you become completely self-centered and self-serving. That’s not how I understand myself as a Christian, and it’s not how I want to live as a human being. So I have to add a sixth category called Giving Back. That’s where I put my volunteering for church and homeschool co-op. I need to be careful not to take on too much, though. It’s too easy to get sucked into the service vortex, where it’s almost impossible to say ‘no’ to others’ legitimate needs. But those needs are endless, and one person can only do so much. Even Jesus turned his back on people who came to him for healing, because he had other things he needed to attend to. (Mark 1:32-39)

Finding balance isn’t easy, and I won’t always be able to dedicate equal time to each of these categories. But this at least gives me a framework.

I will blog here as I can, hopefully at least every other week. But there will be times when I have to let this go, and I hope you’ll understand. And I wish you luck in finding balance in your own life, too.

Literary Pursuits – October 2017

It’s been two years since the last time I did a Literary Pursuits post (and two weeks since the last time I posted to my weekly blog, but we won’t talk about that). I won’t try to cover that entire time, though. I’ll just focus on the last month, which has been busy!

What I’m Reading

Not much, to be honest. Nearly all of my book reading has been for the kids. I’ve been working my way through the entire Harry Potter series as their bedtime story, and we’re now on the last book, Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. Son has already read ahead and has finished the book (twice), but knows better than to ruin it for Daughter. They both love the series. Daugher was Hermione for Halloween.

In the car we’ve been listening to the Bloody Jack series by L.A. Meyer on audiobook. The series started off well with Bloody Jack: Being an Account of the Curious Adventures of Mary “Jacky” Faber, Ship’s Boy. A twelve year old street urchin from London disguises herself as a boy and is taken on as ship’s boy aboard a Royal Navy ship. The kids and I both loved her antics and spunk, and I loved the fact that it’s set in the early 1800s, so there’s a lot of history to discuss. The series remained decent through the fourth book, but began to go downhill by the fifth. Among other problems, there’s a lot of sex. We’re currently in the tenth book, Viva Jacquelina! Being an Account of the Further Adventures of Jacky Faber, Over the Hills and Far Away, and even though she’s still technically a virgin (barely), Meyer hasn’t been shy about describing the situations that tempted or threatened her. Last book we even had to endure banter about penis size. I’m hoping a lot of this is going over the kids’ heads, but I’m not counting on it. Oh well. They still love it, and we only have two more books to go.

As part of our unit on the Civil War, I assigned Two Miserable Presidents: Everything Your Schoolbooks Didn’t Tell You About the Civil War by Steve Sheinkin. I found it funny, engaging, and informative, but the kids didn’t. I had to quiz them after each chapter to make sure they actually read it.

For my own reading I’ve been trying to make it through The Windup Girl by Paolo Bacigalupi, but I’m finding it a challenge. That’s a pity, because the description seemed promising and the futuristic dystopian world he created is fantastic, but the story is a real drag. I’ll finish it, but only because I’m stubborn.

On my phone as part of my devotional reading I have Selected Writings by Hildegard of Bingen. I didn’t like her writings the first time I attempted them, but I have a better appreciation of them now that I have a better understanding of her historical context.

I also subscribe to two magazines. You know, the old fashioned kind that are made out of paper and actually mailed to you? One is Writers Digest and the other is The Christian Century. I’m on the current issue of Writers Digest and I’m running one issue behind on The Christian Century. Oh well.

What I’m Writing

I’ve been a little more successful here. For the past month I’ve been focusing on editing, rewriting, formatting, and printing my first book through Quiet Publications. I mentioned it here a few weeks ago. It’s called Luther’s Catechism: A Modern Reflection and it’s now available for purchase (hint hint!). I’m still trying to set up as an ecommerce site, but that’s all new territory for me and it’s slow going. In the meantime the book is available at the Harvard Bookstore in Cambridge, MA, in-store and online.


I’m also doing final edits on my novel. I’ve received feedback from a few beta readers, which was incredibly helpful. Once I’m done with this round I’ll start querying agents.

That’s about it for October. What have you been reading and/or writing? Please share in the comments!

Me Too

On Sunday night actress Alyssa Milano tweeted, “If you’ve been sexually harassed or assaulted write ‘me too’ as a reply to this tweet.” By Monday morning, tens of thousands of women had answered her call, and, at the time of this writing (Wednesday morning) people are still tweeting the #MeToo hashtag.

Milano wanted to offer a glimpse into the number of women who continue to be victimized, and the size of the response has taken many by surprise.

Me too.

It’s taken me by surprise. Because #MeToo. I have a legitimate claim to that hashtag, even though I never considered myself a victim.

I thought what happened to me was a normal part of being a woman. The sad thing is, I was right.

I remember in my teens it was a point of pride to be catcalled on the street. It meant you were “pretty enough to f–k.” Not being catcalled meant you weren’t attractive to men, and that was shameful and humiliating.

That was normal.

When I lived in my first apartment, the male friend of a friend came over to help install a ceiling fan. When he was finished, he started kissing me. I’ll admit, I was fine with the kissing. But then he led me over to my bed and tried to turn it into more than kissing, and I wasn’t fine with that. I told him—nicely—to stop, and he ignored me. I told him again—nicely—that I really meant it, and I wanted him to stop. He still ignored me. I stopped being nice and told him in a very firm tone that he needed to leave now. He stepped back and apologized for scaring me. And he left.

He wasn’t the only guy to apologize for scaring me when I took that tone with them, but I only ever took that tone after they ignored my less assertive attempts to get them to stop. These weren’t strangers. They were men I’d liked and chosen to spend time with, and I didn’t think it was necessary to become confrontational the moment they crossed the line. Sometimes they honestly didn’t know where that line was. But simply telling them wasn’t enough. I had to be ‘scared’ in order for these ordinary, non-rapists to leave me alone.

I wasn’t scared; I was pissed.

These are men who consider themselves good guys because they would never force a woman.

This is normal.

A coworker I’d become friends with began making suggestive comments and passing them off as harmless dirty jokes, only to accuse me of having no sense of humor when I told him I didn’t appreciate it. When he continued even after I told him to stop, I informed him that what he was doing was sexual harassment and I would report him. The dirty jokes stopped, and were replaced by snide comments about how I was a prude and wanted to destroy his career. Several other coworkers—men and women—kept their distance from me after that.

This is normal.

Even when I was groped on a crowded subway, I wrote it off as it being “my turn” that day, because it happens to everyone. It’s normal.

It’s normal for women.

And it shouldn’t be.

There’s a meme of comedian Peter White saying, “I think the golden rule for men should be: If you’re a man, don’t say anything to a woman on the street that you wouldn’t want a man saying to you in prison.”

I appreciate his sentiment, and it may serve to help men understand what it’s like for women. But think about it. Really think about it. Men in prison are in a hostile environment where they have to be on their guard all the time. That’s normal, everyday life for women.

With the possible exception of my experience on the subway, what I’ve described here usually isn’t even considered sexual harassment or assault. Why not?

There’s a photo of a man walking in a crowd of women. He’s wearing pants but no shirt, and he’s holding a sign that reads (in Spanish): “I’m half naked surrounded by the opposite sex…and I feel safe, not intimidated. I want the same for women.” Understandably, this photo went viral. It shines a spotlight on a twisted reality that most people don’t notice or realize, because this reality is considered normal.

Unfortunately, it turns out that the man holding this sign has a history of domestic violence. But the truth of the message should not be diminished by the hypocrisy of the messenger. A scantily-clad woman walking alone in a crowd of men would not feel safe. Furthermore, she would most likely be blamed for anything that happened to her. “What was she doing there in the first place?” “Why wasn’t she wearing something less revealing?”

This is normal.

This should not be normal. What happened to me should not be normal.

So I say me too.


Exciting News

It’s been a while since I’ve posted here, and I know saying “I’ve been busy” is no excuse.

But I’ve been busy.

And that busyness has resulted in some pretty exciting news that I get to announce. The only question is, where should I begin?

Perhaps the most exciting news is the fact that I’m nearly finished publishing my first book through my publishing house, Quiet Publications. The book is called Luther’s Catechism: A Modern Reflection. It came from a midweek Lenten series I wrote for my church earlier this year (and published on this blog, if you care to look). I’ve taken those brief reflections, expanded them, and added discussion questions after each chapter. The book is appropriate for confirmation, new member, and adult education classes, as well as individuals. It goes deeper into the content than Luther’s Small Catechism but it’s not as dense as Luther’s Large Catechism.

The book being published is the first bit of exciting news. The fact that it’s being published through Quiet Publications is the second bit. After letting it languish for years, I’ve finally decided to do something with my publishing house. In addition to Luther’s Catechism: A Modern Reflection, I’ve also begun work on two other books. One of them is based on a bible study I wrote and taught a few years ago, and the other is from a sermon series I preached. I’m not going to say any more about those, though, until they’re closer to publication.

First, though, I have to redo the Quiet Publications website so it can handle online orders. Please have patience with me if you go over there to check things out and see a mess.

At some point I plan to accept submissions from other authors, but right now I have too much to learn to be able to offer them much. I’d rather make all the big mistakes on my own work, rather than someone else’s.

In the past, Quiet Publications published a daily devotion based on the daily lectionary reading as it appears in Evangelical Lutheran Worship (2006). That’s coming back beginning Thursday, November 30, which is the first day of the new church year (Year B, for you church nerds out there). Conveniently, the last time I published Quiet Devotions was Year B, so I’ve already got a head start. If you subscribed to Quiet Devotions in the past, I have to ask you to subscribe again once the new website is up. My current subscription list has over 1,600 email addresses, and as much as I’d like to believe I’m that popular, I know that most of those are spammers. I’m going to purge that list and start over with a list managed by MailChimp.

My writing hasn’t been limited to Quiet Publications projects, either. I’m now doing my final edits on the novel I’ve been writing since 2012. It’s been through two rounds of beta readers, and once I finish these edits I’ll begin searching for an agent. I’m perfectly happy to self-publish my theological nonfiction, but I want my fiction to be published traditionally. So far it’s gotten great feedback, and I’m optimistic about my chances. I don’t want to reveal too much about it just yet, but more will come later.

So that’s my exciting news: I’m finally beginning to pull it together as a writer and publisher. I’ll have a much stronger presence on Quiet Publications and here, with blog posts appearing weekly. I’ve already planned out what I’m going to write each week through the end of the year.

I hope you’ll come along with me.

Repeal and Replace – Words Matter

So Republicans are struggling again to repeal and replace Obamacare. They’ve been promising this for years, yet even with Republican control of the presidency, the House, and the Senate, they can’t seem to follow through. Conservative Republicans feel the new bill is too similar to Obamacare. Moderate Republicans are concerned that their constituents who rely on Obamacare’s provisions will suffer. Democrats are demanding that Obamacare be improved, rather than repealed and replaced.

Let me make a suggestion. As the first order of business, let’s just change the name. Let’s not call it Obamacare, or even by its official name, the Affordable Care Act. Then maybe conservatives can stop rejecting out of hand anything that is currently part of the law, regardless of how reasonable it might be.

As I’ve said many times on this blog, words matter. The name ‘Obamacare’ matters, because it’s far more polarizing than ‘Affordable Care Act.’ In February a research and media company called “Morning Consult” conducted a poll about the existing health care law, and the results were remarkable. 80% of Republicans polled strongly disapproved of Obamacare, but only 60% of Republicans strongly disapproved of the Affordable Care Act. 35% of all people polled didn’t know they were the same thing. 45% didn’t know if repealing Obamacare would mean the Affordable Care Act would disappear.

So let’s just change the name to something neutral, like Bob. And then ask the Republicans to identify what it is they want to do. Because ‘repeal and replace Bob’ is not a viable legislative agenda.

The word ‘repeal’ matters. Repeal means to revoke or cancel. It means to remove the legal force of any law (in which case it’s no longer a law).

The big Republican promise for the last several years has been to repeal Bob. Bob attempts to provide affordable health care to all Americans. (I said attempt; my own family is on its second stint of going without health insurance since Bob became the law of the land, so I’m certainly not going deny its flaws and failures.) Does that mean Republicans don’t want affordable health care for all Americans? I fervently hope that’s not the case. In any case, I’ll go ahead and obey the eighth commandment and interpret everything my neighbor does in the best possible light. Let’s assume that Republicans do want affordable health care for all Americans, but they disagree with how Bob approaches it. Fine. Fair argument. I’m listening to your ideas, Republicans.

But all I’m hearing is REPEAL AND REPLACE!

Sen. Rand Paul (R-KY) objected to the Senate’s American Health Care Act proposal by saying, “[W]e want the bill to look more like a repeal [of the Affordable Care Act AKA ‘Obamacare’]. We’re afraid that when we read the bill, it actually looks more like a reiteration or a keeping of Obamacare…To my mind, the most important thing is [Republicans] promised to repeal Obamacare. The current bill looks like we’re keeping large parts of Obamacare.”  That was his objection, that and the fact that the subsidies to help people buy the insurance were too high and the whole thing would cost more than Obamacare Bob in the first year or two. The joint statement he made with Sens. Ron Johnson (R-WI), Ted Cruz (R-TX), and Mike Lee (R-UT), stated: “[I]t does not appear this draft as written will accomplish the most important promise that we made to Americans: to repeal Obamacare and lower their health care costs.”

Is repealing Obamacare the most important thing the Republicans can do? Or would ensuring affordable health care for all rank slightly higher? To listen to these Republicans, the content and quality of the replacement bill are far less important than repealing the existing law, and that’s a problem. If that’s not the case, then Republicans need to do a much better job of choosing their words.

Lowering Americans’ health care costs is a fine goal–one shared by Bob, actually. But the emphasis on repeal and replace has been heavy on the repeal and short on any plan to replace it. In fact, as much as I want to obey that eighth commandment, I don’t have any real confidence that many Republicans in the House or Senate really do care about the health needs of the American people. And I base my lack of confidence not on their words, but on their actions. It’s based on the number of Republican congressional representatives who intentionally avoided facing their constituents after voting on the House bill in April. And it’s based on the fact that the Senate crafted their bill in secret and tried to put it to a vote before anyone could thoroughly read or analyze it. Are those the actions of people who are genuinely concerned about the needs and realities of the everyday people they’re supposed to represent?

Health policy is broken in the United States. It was broken before Bob, and it’s broken in a different way now. Fixing this situation is going to be difficult enough without getting caught up on what to call it. Words matter. For instance, health care and health insurance are two entirely different things, yet no one in government has acknowledged that fact. It seems to me that Democratic plans aim to provide health care to all, and Republican plans aim to control health insurance costs and premiums. Both are important, but not differentiating between the two is like rolling routine maintenance plans into insurance plans for vehicles and coming up with a single plan for everyone, regardless of whether you drive a Bentley, BMW, Honda, Dodge, or take the bus. It just doesn’t work. Until our legislators start talking about the same thing and agree on a common goal, this whole nightmare is only going to get worse for more and more people, and people are going to die.

Words matter, people. Lives matter more. Forget about repeal and replace. Forget about Obamacare and the Affordable Health Care Act. Forget about the American Health Care Act. Forget about Bob. Figure out what the people of this country need (the living, breathing people, not the corporations who have legal personhood and boatloads of money for lobbyists) and craft a plan to provide for their health and wellbeing. If you’ve been elected to office, listen to the constituents you’re supposed to represent. All of them. That means Sens. Paul and McConnell need to listen to the Democrats in Kentucky and Sen. Sanders needs to listen to the Republicans in Vermont. (Yes, there are Democrats in Kentucky and Republicans in Vermont.) Come to think of it, forget about Democrat and Republican. Forget about liberal and conservative. Let’s think as Americans.

Better yet, let’s think as humans. If we can recognize the humanity in each other, maybe we can stop all this demonizing and name-calling, and get to work at taking care of each other.


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Will God ‘Fix’ Climate Change?

By now it’s old news that Donald Trump plans to pull the United States out of the Paris climate change agreement. I’m not writing another article explaining why that’s a bad idea (even though I think it is because of this, this, and this). Instead, I’m going to address the religious arguments that support climate change denial.

The week before Trump’s announcement, Rep. Tim Walberg (R-Mich) said in a town hall meeting, “I believe there’s been climate change since the beginning of time. I think there are cycles. Do I think that man has some impact? Yeah, of course. Can man change the entire universe? No. Why do I believe that? Well, as a Christian, I believe that there is a creator in God who is much bigger than us. And I’m confident that, if there’s a real problem, he can take care of it.”

First I want to give credit where credit is due. Yes, there have been cycles of climate change since the beginning of time. The first link above begins with NASA stating “The Earth’s climate has changed throughout history. Just in the last 650,000 years there have been seven cycles of glacial advance and retreat, with the abrupt end of the last ice age about 7,000 years ago marking the beginning of the modern climate era — and of human civilization.” So Rep. Walberg and the majority of the scientific community agree on that one. And I’m glad to see he acknowledges that humanity does have some impact on our environment. But the word “some” hides a multitude of sins. How much impact? By what means? In what ways? Rep. Walberg doesn’t address these questions because in his opinion humanity can’t “change the entire universe,” meaning we can’t be a real threat to our environment.

He’s correct that human activity can’t change the entire universe. It can’t even change the entire galaxy, or even our entire solar system. Science doesn’t disagree with that. But we don’t have to change any of those things to be a threat to our environment. We only have to change the climate of our own planet, and we are doing that.

Science doesn’t give much weight to the assertion that God is bigger than us, but I do. I’m also a Christian, and I believe in the same God that Rep. Walberg does. I believe that God is just as powerful as Rep. Walberg claims he is. But I don’t believe he’s in the business of cleaning up our messes. There’s a big difference between ‘can’ and ‘will,’ and in regards to God fixing climate change, I see nothing the biblical record to suggest that he will. Quite the contrary, the bible shows me a God who expects and commands people to act with justice, kindness, and compassion, but allows the suffering and carnage that result when people don’t.

Rep. Walberg’s appeal to Christian belief to deny or minimize humanity’s impact on the earth’s environment is neither revolutionary nor a product of Trump politics. Back in 2012 Senator James Inhofe (R-OK) gave an interview to Christian Youth America’s radio program Crosstalk with Vic Eliason, in which he cited Genesis 8:22 as the source of his belief that human influenced climate change is impossible.

“As long as the earth endures, seedtime and harvest, cold and heat, summer and winter, day and night will never cease.” Genesis 8:22 (NIV)

In regards to that quote he said, “[M]y point is, God’s still up there. The arrogance of people to think that we, human beings, would be able to change what He is doing in the climate is to me outrageous.”

What’s so outrageous about that? People have been taking what God has given them and perverting, destroying, or changing it all along. In the first chapter of Genesis God gave Adam and Eve paradise, including “every seed-bearing plant on the face of the whole earth and every tree that has fruit with seed in it,” but as a result of their actions God changed what he was doing and told Adam:

“Cursed is the ground because of you; in toil you will eat of it all the days of your life. Both thorns and thistles it shall grow for you; and you will eat the plants of the field. By the sweat of your face you will eat bread till you return to the ground.” Genesis 3:17b-19a (NIV)

If two people could change God’s plan for creation with a single act, I can’t see why several billion people can’t change that same creation by deforesting the earth, destroying the ground in the search for and extraction of fossil fuels, and burning those fuels in large quantities.

Senator Inhofe also used Genesis 8:22 to make the case that “God is still up there,” tying the endurance of the earth to God’s existence. But that’s not what the verse says at all. It ties the days, the seasons, and the agricultural rhythm of life to the endurance of the earth. What happens when the earth ceases to endure? One can only assume that days, seasons, and life will end with the earth. And God will still be up there.

It’s important to remember that Genesis 8:22 is the promise God gave to Noah after he and all the people and animals with him left the ark. A few verses later the covenant continues:

“I establish my covenant with you: Never again will all life be destroyed by the waters of a flood; never again will there be a flood to destroy the earth.” Genesis 9:11 (NIV)

God doesn’t promise to keep life on earth safe from calamity for all eternity. He doesn’t even promise to never take an active hand in destroying it again. God’s promise, which is repeated again in verse 15 of that same chapter, is that God will never again destroy the earth with a flood. There are so many ways in which God can still destroy the world without breaking his promise, and there’s nothing in that covenant that prevents us from destroying ourselves.

I would also like to point out Psalm 102:25-27 to Senator Inhofe:

“Of old You founded the earth,
And the heavens are the work of Your hands.

Even they will perish, but You endure;
And all of them will wear out like a garment;
Like clothing You will change them and they will be changed.

But You are the same,
And Your years will not come to an end.” Psalm 102:25-27 (NIV)

The earth and all of creation is finite. God is not. “God is still up there” is no guarantee that life on earth will continue. It’s not arrogant to claim that human activity can negatively impact God’s creation. It’s arrogant to claim that we can do whatever we want to God’s creation and God will save us from the consequences of our actions.

Luther’s Catechism – The Sacrament of the Altar

The Worship and Music Committee at my church asked me to write five short reflections on Luther’s Small Catechism for use in our Wednesday night Lenten services. I’m republishing those reflections here. Eventually I will publish a book with slightly expanded versions of these reflections for congregational use (adult or Confirmation study) or anyone seeking to understand more about Luther’s Catechism.

Reflection 5 (read at Trinity Lutheran Church, Chelmsford, MA on Wednesday, April 5, 2017)

The Sacrament of the Altar

OK, you’ve been baptized. You’ve been dipped in water and drawn out again, dead to sin and alive in Christ. The Holy Spirit has brought you to the Church, and you’ve been received into the Christian community.

Now what?

You might be dead to sin, but sin itself is not dead. It follows you day by day. It entices you and tempts you beyond endurance to do things that are contrary to God’s will. You can remember your baptism and know that your reception into the Church is eternal and irrevocable, and you can remember that being the Church means your sins are forgiven. But the Christian Church is so vast, spanning not only the continents but the ages, and blanket statements about forgiveness can feel weak and ineffective against the knowledge of how often you yourself turn from God and embrace sin.

The Church is vast, but that vastness is comprised of individual people just like you. And while we are called into something larger than ourselves, we are not expected to stop being ourselves. God knows who you are, and God knows what you need.

“This is my body, which is given for you,” Jesus Christ said to his disciples as he gave them bread on the night in which he was betrayed. He went on to say, “This cup that is poured out for you is the new covenant in my blood,” and he gave them wine. Then he said, “Do this in remembrance of me.”

Jesus gave his body and blood for you. Specifically you. It’s not a blanket promise to a nebulous community; his grand act of salvation had a very specific purpose. God the Son died and rose again in order to bring you into relationship with God the Father. You are God’s child and heir. You are Christ’s sibling. You. God does this for you. And Christ commanded you to do this in remembrance of him. Eat this bread. Drink this wine. Each crumb of bread passes only one set of lips, as does each drop of wine. Yours. This bread and this wine are for you, reminding you of your relationship with God, reminding you of how precious you are in his* sight, forgiving you all the sins that you have committed.

In baptism God attaches his incomprehensible Word to ordinary water, making that common element an extraordinary conveyor of God’s promises and forgiveness. In the Sacrament of the Altar, or the Lord’s Supper as it’s commonly called, God makes ordinary bread and wine the conveyors of his promises. As in baptism, he does this by attaching his incomprehensible Word to something common and familiar, making it something we can grasp while also making it something more.

The bread and wine are just common elements, nothing special in and of themselves. But when joined with God’s Word, they become the body and blood of Jesus Christ. Much ink has been expended in trying to explain exactly how this happens, but the answer is quite simple. The bread and the wine become Jesus’s body and blood because the Word of God says they do.

Baptism is the beginning of a journey, and beginnings happen only once. The Lord’s Supper is given as regular food and sustenance so that our faith may refresh and strengthen itself and not weaken in the struggle. God recognizes that human life is a constant struggle between obedience to him and obedience to our own desires, and we need constant renewal of our faith. That’s why we’re invited to partake in the Lord’s Supper over and over and over again.

The Ten Commandments tell us what God expects from us. He expects us to obey. And we can’t. We try to obey, but we always fall short of what the commandment demands. But with the Lord’s Supper we have the opportunity to obey fully. Eat this bread. Drink this wine. Do this for the remembrance of me.

We can eat bread. We can drink wine. We can do those things in remembrance of Christ. We can obey, and we can receive a tangible reminder that while our struggles may continue day after day, the outcome has already been determined. Christ has died on the cross and risen victorious for our sake, putting in place a bond that can never be broken.

We will never be worthy to approach the altar of God and expect his blessings. That’s why he instituted the Lord’s Supper. As Luther puts it, “If you are heavy-laden and feel your weakness, go joyfully to the sacrament and receive refreshment, comfort, and strength. If you wait until you are rid of your burden in order to come to the sacrament purely and worthily, you must stay away from it forever.”

You are weak and heavy-laden with sin. So is everyone else who makes up the Church, across the continents and across the ages. Your particular combination of weakness and sin is unique to you, and known to God. And it is for that reason that God was born into human history, conquered sin and death, and bridged the chasm between the holiness of the Creator and the meanness of creation. He gave his commandments, he revealed himself through his Word, he taught us to pray and reach out to him for help. He sent his Spirit to gather us into one.

And he did all this for the sake of the love he has for you.



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Luther’s Catechism – Baptism

The Worship and Music Committee at my church asked me to write five short reflections on Luther’s Small Catechism for use in our Wednesday night Lenten services. I’m republishing those reflections here. Eventually I will publish a book with slightly expanded versions of these reflections for congregational use (adult or Confirmation study) or anyone seeking to understand more about Luther’s Catechism.

Reflection 4 (read at Trinity Lutheran Church, Chelmsford, MA on Wednesday, March 29, 2017)

The first three parts of the catechism convey information. The Ten Commandments give us God’s intentions and expectations for how we’re to live our lives. The Creed tells us who God is and what he’s* done for us. The Lord’s Prayer instructs us on how to ask God for help living according to his will.

The last two parts of the catechism are also informative, but they do more than convey information or instruction. They describe how God continues to be active in our elemental world.

Jesus commanded his followers to make disciples of all nations and to baptize them in the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit. Therefore baptism is the means through which we are first received into the Christian community, the church. In baptism a person is literally or symbolically dipped in water and then drawn out again. This represents death and new life, or as Luther puts it, the slaying of the old Adam and the resurrection of the new man. The apostle Paul describes how in baptism our old selves are crucified along with Christ.

“What then are we to say? Should we continue in sin in order that grace may abound? By no means! How can we who died to sin go on living in it? Do you not know that all of us who have been baptized into Christ Jesus were baptized into his death? Therefore we have been buried with him by baptism into death, so that, just as Christ was raised from the dead by the glory of the Father, so we too might walk in newness of life. For if we have been united with him in a death like his, we will certainly be united with him in a resurrection like his. We know that our old self was crucified with him so that the body of sin might be destroyed, and we might no longer be enslaved to sin. For whoever has died is freed from sin. But if we have died with Christ, we believe that we will also live with him. We know that Christ, being raised from the dead, will never die again; death no longer has dominion over him. The death he died, he died to sin, once for all; but the life he lives, he lives to God. So you also must consider yourselves dead to sin and alive to God in Christ Jesus.” Romans 6:1-11 (NRSV)

We die to sin and are united with him in death, and we’re raised along with him in a new and everlasting life. The death and resurrection of Jesus Christ is central to the Christian faith, and participating in those events through baptism brings us into that faith.

But different churches have different baptismal practices. Some pour a small amount of water over the new disciple’s head. Others have full immersion pools built into their sanctuaries. Yet others insist that baptisms must take place in a lake or river, just as Jesus was baptized in the Jordan. Some baptize infants, others believe that a person must be old enough to be taught God’s Word and choose for themselves whether or not to enter into the Christian community. These endless variations in practice have caused many people to question whether their baptisms are valid, and more than a few have been re-baptized according to their new congregation’s standards.

Re-baptism is unnecessary. If a baptism involves water and God’s Word and is done in God’s name, then it’s valid. And the reason why any and all of those variations are valid is because baptism is not something we do. It’s not a work we accomplish or perform in order to earn redemption. Our inability to obey the Ten Commandments shows us that our works are of no use for salvation. Baptism, however, is not our work but God’s, and God’s works are absolutely necessary for salvation.

Water is water, and there’s nothing we can do to it to make it holy. Baptisms have been done with river water, lake water, rainwater, tap water, and in one rather unfortunate case, saliva. (The deacon forgot to fill the baptismal font before worship, so the pastor had to improvise.) There was absolutely nothing special about any of that water until God’s Word was added to it. Then it became a sacrament, a holy and divine sign. Yes, even the spit. Because baptism doesn’t depend on the source or amount of water used. It doesn’t depend on the worthiness of the one doing the baptism. It doesn’t even depend on the faith of the one being baptized. Faith doesn’t constitute baptism; faith receives it. And baptism doesn’t become invalid if it’s wrongly received or used, because it’s bound not to our faith but to God’s Word. And even by our grossest misuse or blasphemy, we do not have the power to invalidate God’s Word.

The full truth of God’s Word is incomprehensible to us. That’s why he was born into our history, so we could see the depths of God’s love and mercy in a familiar form we could understand. Baptism is no different. God attaches his Word to water. We understand water. We know what it looks like, how it tastes, how it smells, how it feels. So this elemental substance is something we can perceive, attach our faith to, and bring into our hearts.

Baptism is forever, but our obedience and commitment wavers. We sin daily. But we don’t need to be baptized daily. We only need to remember that we are baptized, and that remembrance allows us to die to sin and rise to new life again. And again. And again. The ubiquity of water in our lives is symbolic of the ubiquity of God in our lives, and it serves as a reminder that even when we abandon God, God never abandons us.

The Spirit calls us to become the church. Baptism is our entrance into the church. And we receive forgiveness for our sins in the church. That forgiveness remains with us day by day as long as we live, and no matter how far we’ve fallen, it’s never too late to remember our baptism, die to sin, and rise to new life again.



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Luther’s Catechism – The Lord’s Prayer

The Worship and Music Committee at my church asked me to write five short reflections on Luther’s Small Catechism for use in our Wednesday night Lenten services. I’m republishing those reflections here. Eventually I will publish a book with slightly expanded versions of these reflections for congregational use (adult or Confirmation study) or anyone seeking to understand more about Luther’s Catechism.

Reflection 3 (read at Trinity Lutheran Church, Chelmsford, MA on Wednesday, March 22, 2017)

The Lord’s Prayer

The Ten Commandments tell us what God expects from us. The Creed tells us who God is and what he* has done for us. But how do we bring those two things together?

The second commandment tells us, “You shall not make wrongful use of the name of the Lord your God.” If we are not to make wrongful use of God’s name, then that means there’s a rightful use of God’s name. And prayer is that rightful use.

But sometimes people don’t pray because they don’t know how, or because they feel unworthy to call upon God Almighty. They believe he won’t listen or won’t care because of the things they’ve done. But the whole point of God the Son entering into human history was to bridge the gap between the holiness of God and the wretchedness of our reality. God wants to be in relationship with us, God chooses to communicate with us through his Word and his Spirit, and God desires us to communicate with him through prayer.

And God the Son instructed us on exactly how to pray. Martin Luther, among others, divided what we call the Lord’s Prayer into seven petitions. In the first petition we pray that God’s name might be holy. Why do we need to pray this? Isn’t his name already holy?

God’s name is indeed holy in and of itself, but our use of his name is not. Here we pray that God will help us to keep the second commandment, and that God’s name will be as holy to us and throughout the world as it is in his heavenly realm.

Next we pray that his kingdom come. When God the Son walked among us and revealed himself to us, he also revealed what his kingdom is like. In the kingdom of God all people are redeemed and delivered from the power of evil, and love shapes righteousness and justice. Jesus not only told us about this kingdom, but he showed it to us in the way he treated the poor and the outcasts of his time. Today God’s people have many opportunities to model kingdom living to those who have not yet received the Gospel by faith. The more we live it now, the more people will be drawn into it and make it a reality that spreads throughout the whole world. We pray that the kingdom of God will work and live in us, and we in it.

But the current systems governing the world are unjust, favoring the wants of some over the needs of others, and there are those who will fight anyone who challenges their comfortable status quo. In order to model kingdom living on earth we must obey God’s will, especially when doing so is unpopular. Martin Luther tells us that wherever God’s Word is preached and bears fruit, the blessed holy cross will not be far away. Jesus modeled kingdom living and the world murdered him for it. We should not expect the world to reward us for doing the same. So in the third petition we pray for patience and strength to bear whatever sufferings we may endure as we obey God’s will and live according to kingdom rules, rather than worldly rules.

The fourth petition, “Give us this day our daily bread,” is better translated “Give us today our bread for today.” There’s not a daily allotment of bread that we’re entitled to. Rather we’re asking that God meet whatever needs we have on that particular day, day after day, recognizing that not all days are the same. And bread refers to everything we need in order to live and function in the world, even beyond our physical and material needs. In addition to food, shelter, and clothing we pray that God will give us the patience, wisdom, peace, strength, etc. necessary to engage in our domestic, business, and civic affairs.

In the fifth petition we pray that God will forgive us our trespasses, or debts, as we forgive those who trespass against us. Most of us would like to cut this petition in half and leave it there, with God forgiving our trespasses. But it’s not only the powers of the world that fight against God’s kingdom; it’s our own natures as well. In order to obey God’s will we must model kingdom living, and in God’s kingdom we are called to forgive each other as many times as necessary. That’s not easy to do. But God never promised that following him would be easy. We sin against God every day, yet he forgives it all through grace, over and over again. What do we proclaim about the kingdom when we refuse to model the grace that lies at the very heart of the Son’s Lordship?

Next we pray that God lead us not into temptation. The powers on earth have endured for so long because they promise appealing benefits. We want wealth and power, or at least security and comfort. It’s easy to turn a blind eye on the suffering our systems cause, or to justify why those who suffer are only getting what they deserve. But none of that is compatible with kingdom living. And none of that is going to disappear once we decide to follow Christ. Temptation is a part of life, but in this petition we pray that God will give us the power and strength to resist. Jesus faced temptation in the desert, but he resisted. We pray for that same strength, because we too will be faced with temptation after temptation, and it will never get any easier. But God’s power will always be greater than our temptations, and God’s mercy will always be greater than our failures.

The final petition is that God will deliver us from evil. Faithfulness and obedience to God’s will may bring us poverty, shame, tragedy, misery, heartache, even death. All the things the world generates in abundance. We cannot possibly obey God’s will without God’s help, and this final petition brings us back once again to the first commandment: You shall have no other gods. We are entirely dependent on God for our lives, our sustenance, even our obedience. And we are entirely dependent on him for his grace and mercy.

The Ten Commandments tell us what God expects from us. The Creed tells us what God has done for us. And the Lord’s Prayer gives us a way to bring everything we have to God, with full confidence that he is listening, he will hear us, and he is with us.



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Luther’s Catechsim – The Creed

The Worship and Music Committee at my church asked me to write five short reflections on Luther’s Small Catechism for use in our Wednesday night Lenten services. I’m republishing those reflections here. Eventually I will publish a book with slightly expanded versions of these reflections to be used for congregational use (adult or Confirmation study) or anyone seeking to understand more about Luther’s Catechism.

Reflection 2 (read at Trinity Lutheran Church, Chelmsford, MA on Wednesday, March 15, 2017)

The Apostles’ Creed

The summary of God’s will found in the Ten Commandments is not the last word in the catechism—it’s the first. And the second is the Creed.

The Ten Commandments teach us what we ought to do; the Creed tells us what God does for us and gives to us.

Since the Ten Commandments have explained that we are to have no other gods, it’s natural to wonder about the God we’re supposed to have. The first article of the creed helps us to begin to know him*. I believe in God, the Father almighty, creator of heaven and earth. These words give us a brief description of God the Father, his nature, his will, and his work. God is the Father—he is relational within himself and with all his creation. He is almighty—no one is greater. He created heaven and earth and everything contained within, including us.

And even before creation, God was still the Father. He was the Father in relation to the Son. I believe in Jesus Christ, his only Son, our Lord. God the Father is creator of heaven and earth, and God the Son is Lord. What does it mean that he’s our Lord? It means that he has redeemed us from sin, from the devil, from death, and from all evil. Because we are sinners. The Ten Commandments show us just how far from God we are, how unattainable it is to make ourselves pleasing in his sight, and how impossible it is to give him the obedience he expects and deserves. As a result, we deserve his wrath and punishment.

But we don’t have to suffer that fate.

God saw our wretched and desperate state, and had mercy on us. God the Son took our punishment upon himself. He was conceived by the Holy Spirit and born of the Virgin Mary. He suffered under Pontius Pilate, was crucified, died, and was buried. He descended into hell. On the third day he rose again. He ascended into heaven, and is seated at the right hand of the Father. He will come again to judge the living and the dead. God entered human history by being born into his own creation. During his brief life on earth he revealed to us his own loving nature in ways we could understand. And just as humanity rejects God’s commandments, we also rejected his Son Jesus Christ. We condemned him, tortured him, and killed him. And the Son paid the penalty for our sins.

There’s a fragment of a sermon dating back to the end of the fourth century that imagines what happened in the time between Christ’s death and resurrection. “God has appeared in the flesh, and Hades has swallowed him…He has gone to search out Adam, our first father, as if he were a lost sheep. Earnestly longing to visit those who live in darkness and the shadow of death, he—who is both their God and the son of Eve—has gone to liberate Adam from his bonds, and Eve who is held captive along with him…‘I am your God. For your sake I have become your son…I order you, O sleeper, to awake. I did not create you to be a prisoner in hell. Rise from the dead, for I am the life of the dead! Arise my seed! Arise, my form, who has been made in my image!’”

The Son of God has snatched us from the jaws of hell, won us, made us free, and restored us to the Father’s favor and grace. He has taken us as his own, under his protection, in order that he may rule us by his righteousness, wisdom, power, life, and blessedness.

But we still break the Ten Commandments.

I believe in the Holy Spirit, the holy catholic Church, the communion of saints, the forgiveness of sins, the resurrection of the body, and the life everlasting. Martin Luther entitles this article of the Creed “Sanctification.” The Holy Spirit sanctifies us, which is a fancy way of saying that the Holy Spirit makes us holy.

Jesus Christ lived and died two thousand years ago. None of us could ever believe in him and take him as our Lord unless we first heard of him through the preaching of the Holy Spirit. Christ has accomplished our salvation by his sufferings, death, and resurrection, but if no one knew about it, it would have been for nothing. So God has given us his own Spirit to offer us this treasure of salvation. God has given us his own Spirit to create the Church.

The Church is not a building. It’s a holy communion of saints. It’s a group of people called together by the Holy Spirit to live and act under the Lordship of Jesus Christ. Through the Church God’s Spirit gathers us, proclaims the Word to us, and creates and increases holiness in us.

In this Church we obtain forgiveness for our sins through hearing the Word and receiving the sacraments, which are treated later in the Catechism. Although we have sin, God forgives us through the Church called together by the Holy Spirit, and we forgive, bear with, and aid one another.

As the Holy Spirit continues to work through us, we await the time when our flesh will be put to death. It will be buried with all its uncleanness, and will come forth and arise to complete and perfect holiness in a new, eternal life. In that life we are perfectly pure and holy people, full of goodness and righteousness, completely freed from sin, death, and all evil, living in new, immortal, and glorified bodies.

Here in the Creed we have the entire essence of God, his will, and his work. God created us and bestowed upon us everything in heaven and earth. But we could never come to recognize the Father’s favor and grace were it not for the Lord Jesus Christ, who is a mirror of the Father’s heart. But neither could we know anything of Christ had it not been revealed by the Holy Spirit. Three articles of the Creed, three Persons in the Trinity, one God. Everything God does is done by the Father, through the Son, in the Spirit.



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